Puffin
So, I'm getting tired of it.
Tired of it all. And I am wondering to myself..why do I continue to do this?

Why stay with this man if I'm not happy? If i'm the only one trying.
Maybe its because I don't want to be alone. But that's a horrible reason to stay in a relationship. Horrid.

Theres so many things wrong, so I guess I might as well list, so I understand it more myself.

Only see him on the weekends.
Argue all the time.
He isn't affectionate towards me.
Doesn't help me through it when I have issues.
I feel like I'm being cheated on alot.
He doesn't pick up his phone barely.
And...now I'm crying....because I just dont know.
He doesn't include me in his life really..with his friends...

Am I just the fuck on the weekends? I don't feel like this is working. But I do love him. But this isn't a way to live my life. It really isnt. I dont fucking know.